16-Apr-19
9:15 pm
Oakhill, Princeton, NJ
He said, “Life is action. It is dynamic, not static like images.”
He says it takes a lot of energy from the environment to establish order in a disorderly system. The environment contains the sum total of nature’s energy. An orderly system is a source of huge energy. When an unstable system comes in the proximity of a highly stable and ordered system, the resulting energy exchange between them is capable of triggering a transformation in the disordered system. If all the stringent conditions are met, the disorder may transition to a dynamically maintained equilibrium, which is self-sustaining in its nature.
Then actions happen automatically. Whatever it takes to maintain that dynamic balance will get done. Nobody is doing anything! Laws of mother nature … no God, no doer, no “other”, just a self-feeding, stupendous biological marvel! G demonstrates this through his living. What a marvel, what a magic is unfolding in my life!
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17-Apr-19
4:12 am
Oakhill, Princeton
When it becomes a functional reality, then begins the action! Life’s charge and power is channeled into action. It will do anything, everything in its capacity.
G is life itself, life’s energy. His energy, his words have taken deep roots in me and are doing their own thing. I have no say in this. The old man is swimming in my bloodstream.
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4:29 am
He is not up yet. This season is bad for him, allergies and stuff. His asthma is bothering him. He is mostly resting and limiting physical work. But he is the sun, ever shining on everything. Sharp as hell! Softer than butter, tougher than a diamond.
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When action has begun, what are words good for? It shows in everything it touches. Yesterday he looked at me and said, “It is time for business, isn’t it?”
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2-May-19
10:04 pm
What a magical high … I don’t know what he is anymore… such maddening energy from him has engulfed me … just the sound of his voice is enough to put me into samadhi again and again and again.
He keeps an eye on me. It is perhaps life’s primal instinct. An invisible chord ties me to him. He doesn’t need to say much, his body language is enough, like in animals. His functionality is inexplicable yet rock solid. It is the culmination of evolutionary movement in the human species, wherein everything a system has – words, images, ideas, energy – are directed singularly and powerfully towards making it function the way nature has designed and programmed it to function. My proximity to him has impacted my physical body tremendously. I feel this is a massive natural event. But what it actually is and what is exactly happening in my body is unknown to me. What I am expressing is how this whole thing is translating in my head. I cannot claim to know anything more.
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I pass out even when my eyes happen to briefly fall on him. I am astounded by the fact that a particular human being’s presence can have so much significance for another human.
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Two days ago, I slept the entire first half of the day. I froze, felt a tremendous pressure inside my head and couldn’t open my eyes. When I got up, I felt I had come back from the dead. I felt immensely charged. My senses were at their peak. He was very pleased to see me. He appeared blindingly radiant to my eyes.
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2-May-19
Yesterday was his birthday. We sang and danced like crazy! He was luminous, blazing, and nectar like … even my bone marrow was aching with joy!
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